I'm just running. From what? - Part 15

I ran outside. Toby was in the front yard leaning again the house. "Ellie!" He said as he grabbed.
"Let go of me!" I screamed at him as he grabbed and held me close.
"I'm sorry for everything," Toby started, "Olga forced me into it. I swear. She seduced me." I shook my head and cried into his chest. "Please, Ellie. I love you." Toby continued to hold me.
I struggled away from his grip. "I can't do this, Toby." I ran back inside.
Sean caught me when I got back inside. "Ellie. Are you insane?" He hugged my tighter. "Maybe you should get some rest." Sean stroked my hair until he lost grip of me and I walked to my room. I heard the door slam open.
"How could you do this to me, Sean?! You know I'm in love with Ellie!" Toby yelled.
"How could you do that to Ellie, Toby? You know she's in love with you and suicidal." I heard silence, then after a few seconds the door slammed shut again.
I heard Seans shoes creep down the hallway and he slowly opened my door. "Ellie, I really need to go. I hope you get wonderful rest." I nodded. What a lie.
I continued crying in my pillow. I thought about it. The thing I haven't touched. My eyes shot open and my head shot up. My hand violently opened my dresser drawer. It's gotta be there. It has to be. What would I have done with it? It didn't even come to mind.
I tossed around all the junk that I never used. Papers, pens. That sort of stuff. I continued searching through the drawers and until I found it. My razor blade.
I sat on the side of my bed. The razor slowly crept onto my wrist. It continued doing that. I didn't keep track of the cuts. I moaned in pain. Blood. A lot of it. I threw the razor to the dresser and the blood just dripped off my arms, onto the bed, the floor, the table. Everything started going black and the last thing I remember was my name being called.

My eyes started opening themselves. I had no idea where I was. All I heard was a siren. All I saw were flashing lights.
"Ellie!" Jamie called, crying.
"What... What's happening?" That's all I could get out.
"You're gonna be okay." She talked through tears and men in blue outfits stuffed me into the back of a truck.
"She's losing too much blood! Hurry!" One of the men said as they walked away. Jamie went up into the truck, car, whatever the fuck they stored me in, and grabbed my hand tight. That was all I could remember until my vision went blurry and I passed out of 'lack of blood', as the man said.

I yawned and grabbed for my phone on my my dresser. I felt a strong pain as a metal bar and my wrist collided. Where was my phone? I opened my eyes to see a hospital room.
"Ow, fuck." I moaned in pain as I clutched my wrist to my chest. This hospital room was depressing. It smelt the disgusting smell that the hospital has. A chair stared at me from across the room with it's newly looking cushions. The curtain that was beside my bed was ripped and disturbing. There was a flower in a pot by a table beside my bed. It was wilting.
Someone ran into the room, I was too tired to tell. "Ellie!" They called. That voice was obviously Jamie.
I rubbed my eyes with left hand. "Where... am I?" I said as I yawned.
Jamie pulled the seat that was across the room up to my bed and took my hand. "You almost killed yourself." Tears welled up in her eyes as she slowly made her way up to my arm and undid the cloth that was on wrapped around to cover... whatever what was there. I couldn't remember anything except the truck-Er, EMS.
As Jamie unravelled the cloth I saw one cut. Deep. Two. Three. Four, five, six and many more. They were stitched. My arm was mutilated. I did this to me. If you think about it, Toby did this to me. She wrapped the cloth back up. "Don't touch it, there's stitches."Jamie grabbed my hand again as I looked to the left. "Surprised you never asked about Toby yet." She leaned back in the chair.
"Don't say that name. Don't fucking say that name." I thought. "Really?" I said out loud.
Jamie leaned up straight and put her legs on the chair. "Yeah. Toby came in and held your hand, praying you would wake up."
I looked around to find a clock. "When? What time is it? When did he do this?!" I demanded.
She hesitated to look at her phone. "Uhm... It's ten."
"A.M.?"
"A.M." She confirmed  and put her phone back into her pocket.
"And when did Toby come by?" I arched my eyebrows.
"Erm... Three in the morning... I think." Jamie rubbed her eyes.
"You okay?" I worried.
"I've been up with you, here all night." I looked at her in shock.
"All night?"
"All night." She confirmed again and took out her phone. I looked away. "I texted Toby that you're awake and he's on his way." Oh joy.
"Oh..." I said in sadness.
Jamie took her eyes away from her phone. "What's wrong?"
"Jamie..." I began as she concentrated on me. "Toby's the reason I'm here. He cheated on me." As I finished my sentence, Jamie sat there with her jaw open.
"I'll kill him!" She said as she stood up and paced around the room. "I'll fucking kill him! Who was it?"
I swallowed deeply. "..Olga."
Jamie almost punched a hole through the wall before she caught herself as Toby knocked on the glass and opened the door.
"Ellie!" He was about to approach me until Jamie moved in front of him.
"Get the fuck out."
"But... Ellie..." Toby had a hurt look on his face.
"Ellie doesn't need you any more, Mr. Cheatie-Mc-Cheater-Pants."
Toby tried to go past her. "Look, Jamie."
Jamie used her palm to block Toby. "Look, nothing. You cheated, now stay away from her."
Toby sighed. "She's my girlfriend. I did this and need to make it up to her."
I managed to speak with the power I had. "First of all, Toby, you made me go back into a depression. Nothing can forgive that. Second, I'm not your girlfriend anymore. Now go."
Toby slowly, but surely, nodded. "I just want to make you happy." He turned around and headed out the room.

Sean Klitzner - Part 14

I lifted my head up and saw all the eyeliner smeared onto the pillow. I've never been heart broken like this. Before I could even think, I heard the doorbell. I cried harder, leaning against the hall on the way there. My hands reached themselves along the wall before it hit the knob. The door slowly opened and I saw Sean. He noticed that I was heart broken and I fell into his arms.
"Ellie!" Sean stroked my back and walked us inside. "Tell me what happened." He sat both of us down on the couch and held me up.
I sniffed and hiccuped. "Toby..."
He looked at me with his brown eyes and put his hand on mine. "Did he break up with you?"
I shook my head in disbelief and false information. "No... but I saw..."
Sean continued to stroke my back and my head fell into his chest. "It's okay..."
My head shot up and all I said all that I could get out. "WHORE!" I yelled. "That whore!" My head regained it's place on Sean and he pulled me close.
"Who, Ellie?" My hands trembled but still took their place around Sean.
"Olga..." I wiped my eyes and looked up. My arms were around his neck and he was holding me by the waist.
"Toby cheated on you?" He let go of me and started pacing, slowly. "That fucking asshole..." Terrible time to let go of me. I needed to hold onto something so I grabbed the nearest pillow and clutched it to my chest, along with my knees in the fetal position.
By the look of it, it seems that Sean got some tears in his eyes. He walked up to me and hugged me again, forcing me to let go of the pillow. "I'm so sorry."
I shook my head. "Nothing to be sorry for." Sean whipped out his phone from his pocket and phoned someone.
"You're not phoning Toby, are you?" I anxiously asked.
He pulled it away from his ear and pressed cancel. "Yes... You don't want me to?" He placed it back into his pocket.
"Don't." I turned my head away.
I could tell Sean didn't know what to do next. "I love you..." That's the only thing he had.
I continued staring at the floor.
Sean sighed and held me closer. We just sat there in silence and never said a word for ten minutes. I curled closer until the door bell rang. I was about to get up until Sean jolted up and put a hand on my shoulder. "Don't worry about it." He walked to the door and clutched onto the pillow. It was Toby.
"What the fuck do you want?" Sean said. Toby just stood there.
He stuttered. Must've not known what he just did. "Wha-... What?"
Toby's tall figure just looked at me.
"So, how long have you been doing this?" Sean let go of the door and moved closer to the couch, where I was.
"Oh... Shit..." Toby looked me.
"Ellie won't talk to anyone." Sean gestured his hand for Toby to look at me.
Toby walked up to me and leaned over to look at me. "Ellie..." I didn't move.
"What?" I quietly said.
"...I'm sorry." Really, Toby, really?
"No you're not. Go the fuck away." I said.
He teared up. "But I love you."
I shook my head at his comment. "No you don't. You love Olga. How many times have you slept with her, then?" I looked Sean.
Toby sighed. "She forced me into it."
"Of course." I shook my head and looked away. "Don't talk to me." I didn't know what to think. My world was just ripped into pieces.
"Please... I fucked up. I'm so sorry. I hate Olga. She forced me into all of it. I'm sorry Ellie!" Toby argued.
I closed my eyes. "Say all you want. You're just gonna do it again. Now get the fuck out. Both of you. I just wanna... Just wanna be alone." I started crying again.
Sean and Toby looked at each other. "We're not leaving you like this..." Toby said.
"Toby. GET THE FUCK OUT. NOW." I yelled.
Toby shut his eyes and sighed. "Whatever makes you happy." He walked out and closed the door beside him.
"Sean..." I started crying harder. "I can't breathe. I don't wanna live anymore."
Sean ran up to me and hugged me tight again. "No, no, no. You wanna live."
I tugged out of his arms. "No, I don't." I stood up and ran out of the house.

DAMNIT, OLGA - Part 13

I lay with my face in my pillow and Toby's comforting arm around me.
"Please," Toby said as I moaned unhuman sounds, "Talk to me."
I lifted my face out of the pillow. "That fucking ... WHORE!" I screamed in his face and laid mine back down. He continued to stroke my back and thought for a second.
"...Ellie..." Toby reached his hand to the back of my pony tail and pet it.
"What the fuck do you want?" My face when inches away from his.
"I'm sorry for whatever you're angry at." He put his other hand on my cheek.
"Pfft. And I'm sorry for not respecting Olga." My face continued to be in the pillow.
Toby leaned up more. "You're jealous of ... Olga?" He stuttered.
"Yes. Of course. She's beautiful and flirting with you and look at me! I'm just some emo chick you shouldn't be dating."
Toby put his hand on the back of my head and kissed me lightly. "Stop saying this bad shit about yourself. You're sexy and beautiful. One of the most amazing girls I ever met." He continued to kiss me. A tear fell from my cheek as I did the same thing to him. The next thing we knew, we were having sex.
"Toby... Oh my god." I dug my nails into his back and he lightly bit my neck.
"You're so fucking amazing." Toby said between breaths.
"Oh my god..." I grabbed his back tighter and I'm sure he was bleeding from my nails.
"Oh my god." He echoed as we lost grip of each other and he breathed his hot breath on my neck. Toby laughed a bit. "That was intense."
"Every second I'm with you is intense." I laughed, stood up and he kissed me. I gathered up the clothing that Toby had ripped off my body and made my way to the kitchen.
"You're going the right way!" My laugh left my lips quietly as I went back to find my phone.
"That wasn't sexist at all." I giggled as my hand attacked my phone and looked at Twitter. "The Audience is so adorable. The girls on Tinychat are amazing!"
He laughed. "I know, right? I'm glad to have them." My feet dragged across the floor and I walked out of the room with both my hands on my phone. It was only, what, nine PM? Maybe I should Tinychat. I don't know, I work tomorrow at six. I'll go to bed now, I guess.


In the morning I kissed Toby goodbye and left. After work I thought I'd go hang with Jamie. She had to leave for work soon and I wanted to be with her.
"He knows me too well." We laughed around the table talking about Toby.
Jamie blushed. "And... Well I sort of found someone." She bit her lip and looked to the left.
I playfully hit Jamie's arm. "Who, who, who?!" I repeated.
"You know him and I don't think-" I cut her off.
"Tell me or I will fucking cut out your appendix." I picked up a knife and threatened her.
She pulled the, "Wow, we have a badass over here." position with her hands. "Put the fucking knife down and I'll tell you!" The knife dropped to the table again. "Crazy bitch..."
I laughed. "Sorry, I just... I should know every detail that happens in your life!"
"That's right," Jamie began, "You should!" She placed her hand on the table and started playing with the knife. "His name starts with a ... Jack!" She fangirled.
"That's so awesome!" We started jumping up and down in our seats.
Awkwardly was in the air and we both looked at out phones. 
"I have to go to work..." Jamie frowned.
I dropped my phone. "Fuck work!" I laughed. "I'll be a stripper!"
We laughed in unison. "I bet Toby would like that." And laughed harder.
I lightly slammed my fists on the table. "Did you see Toby's Valentines Day song?!" My hands touched my cheeks. "He's so hot in it!"
"So is Jack..." She began playing with the knife again.
I put my hand on hers and shoved it away from the knife. "Stop playing with sharp objects and get to work you lazy ass!" I laughed through my nose.
"But I like sharp objects!" Jamie stood up. "But I'll listen to you." I stood up with her.
"I should go too. I wanna hang out with Toby. You're boring."
Jamie giggled and lightly pushed me playfully. "Shut up!" We both walked out and got in our cars.
"Text me later, Jay." I smiled at her and she pulled out of the driveway first. I drove to Toby's house and noticed his car was there. "Yay, I won't be alone!" I thought. My door opened with the help of my hand and I slithered out like a snake. My head peeked into the window. I saw Toby... but he wasn't alone. Toby definitely wasn't alone. He was definitely laying down on the floor without a shirt... NOT ALONE.
Toby was on top of a girl and was kissing her. The girl had brown hair, that's all I could see. I couldn't get a good look at her face before the named flashed in my brain.
OLGA KAY. 
I could feel the tears fall to my eyes and the lump in my throat. I rushed and got into my car and just left home. I would confront him later, I knew it would be embarrassing if I just opened the door.
Fucking. Cheating. Lying. Bitch. Those words just raved inside my brain and all the thoughts and feelings just poured out as I made my way home and my head onto my pillow. I managed to grab my phone and tweet.
"Fuck this life. I thought I found a savior, but I guess not." Replies came piling in. One was from Sean Klitzner.
"Hey, you okay Ellie? I'm gonna come over." I didn't want him to ruin the fun time with Olga. "I'm at my apartment. Thanks." I replied back.

Fuck life.

Olga Kay - Part 12

I heard a bunch of girls scream. "Hi guest!" Someone by the name of "Madibuscus" typed.
"It's Ellie" I typed, "I'm gonna broadcast". I clicked broadcast and saw the girls giggle a bit.
"Hi Ellie!" Summerbuscus said.
"Feel... Like shit..." That's all I could get out.
"Feel better!" A boy named "Ham42" said with a British accent.
"That's never gonna' happen." I laughed and grabbed for my water bottle on top of the counter. It was slippery, but I managed to grasp it just enough to tug it down onto my lap.
"So... About... Last night..." Holly started.
"Sorry," I laughed, "I thought you knew Toby."
"You two are so adorable together!" Oneminno wrote. "But I think Olga and Toby were cuter." I flinched by the sound of that name. I never thought Olga really liked me. I was a bit intimidated by her.
I coughed awkwardly. "A lot of people say that, but I don't really give a fuck!" I giggled a bit.
"I hate Olga!" Summer and Holly said in unison.
"Awe," I began. "Don't hate! Olga's beautiful and hilarious." A few of the girls kept quiet. I could see by their faces they didn't want to fight because they were mooshers. And Holly sounded violent.
"I don't really like her..." Madibuscus typed.
DING-DONG. 
"Shit, the doorbell," The chat spammed with things that said not to leave. "I'll catch you later, Audience! Love you!" And I disconnected.
I lifted the laptop off of my thighs and with all the strength I had, got up and walked to the front door.
I awkwardly opened the door. It was my worst nightmare. Olga Kay.
"Hey... Olga..." I said while moving the door to get a better view of her.
"Hey Ellie!" She said with her Russian accent. "Toby home?"
I shook my head. "He's at Sean's." Let me just say that I'm the jealous type.
"That sucks." I nodded. "I know... I'm sick and I have no man to comfort me."
She laughed. "He is a good cuddler." Excuse me? You have cuddled with my boyfriend?
"..What?" Tapping my toe against the ground.
"Oh Ellie, stop being jealous." I squinted my eyes and glared at her.
"I'm not... Now get out." I slammed the door in her Russian face. I was okay with Olga before but this crossed the line. I stormed across the room and planted my face into the couch. I was shitty and I had to deal with her? I thought she was nice. I slipped the phone from the coffee table.
"So... why don't you guys like Olga?" I tweeted out. Within seconds I got replies back.
"bcuz she's secretly datin toby oooooh" Someone with horrific grammar sent.
"She sent my best friend mean things..." I got from another girl. Olga isn't a bitch. She couldn't be. I bet this is all a dream and I will wake up and Olga will be a beautiful flower that bloomed. I tossed my iPhone to the coffee table and decided I needed some rest.

"...Ellie... Baby..." I heard and my eyes slowly opened.
"Toby?" I said in mid-yawn.
"Awwe, you're like a little kitty when you sleep." He stroked my head.
"You're always adorable." I sat up and kissed him. Toby reached for his phone in his pocket.
"What time is it?" I reached for my phone too.
"Almost four."
"Fuck, I've been sleeping for hours... I was really sick though."
"You're an angel with you sleep." He pulled me up and kissed me passionately.
"You're always an angel."
"Naw, I'm devilbuscus." Toby laughed and kissed my nose. I began to read tweets on my phone.
"Olga and Sean are upstairs." He smiled and that was the smile that killed me. Olga? No.
I got up and ran to hide in the kitchen. Out of honesty, I was thirsty. I just knew that she would calm down and start telling me to stop being jealous.
Boy, was I right. Olga slid her fingers and gave me that evil smile she gave me at the door at noon.
"Hey Ellie, feeling any better?" She put a hand on my back. I wanted to snap it off.
"A bit, since Toby's here now."
"Toby makes everything better." Olga laughed and went back upstairs.
"We're just filming so don't mind us..." She gave me that smile again and went upstairs.

A few hours later Toby was walking them out of the house.
"See you two later!" He waved and shut the door behind Sean and Olga. I groaned. "Are you feeling okay?" Toby started towards me.
"I'm kind of worse because of that..." I got up from the couch and Toby guided me into his arms.
"Because of..." He waited for me to finish my sentence.
I jerked away from him. "Nothing." I ran upstairs, filling with anger.